Friday, July 4, 2014

Independence

This is going to go nowhere and everywhere at the same time. Are you ready?

I realized recently that there’s just something about sitting on a rooftop deck on a summer night.  Any deck for that matter, but of course my rooftop deck is my favorite. Watching the sun slowly sink behind the city of Baltimore, and being aware of that moment when the automatic timer clicks on and the lights lining the deck railing fade onto a glow.

There’s also something about summer in a city. I don’t know what it is, but it makes me feel like I’m a part of something big, something way bigger than myself. It's electric. It’s like a community in which we are all automatically friends, because we love Baltimore damnit.

Does that even make sense? It’s unrelated to what I’m about to say, but I wanted to say it, because it brings me joy.

Disclaimer: I wrote this yesterday, 7/3.

I haven’t written since early June, and I can’t say I missed it too much.  That’s blunt but it’s the truth. I’m kind of tired of taking pictures of my food and drinks and some things that deep down I just don’t really care about anymore.

Maybe it’s partially because I’m not racing anymore, and race recaps have always been my favorite to write about. Maybe I just want to buy a new pair of running shoes and try them out without feeling like I have to report back on them. Maybe it’s because I’m wedding planning and that’s exciting and a lot of my time now goes into the logistics of planning one of the biggest parties of our lives. I could blame it on family stuff, extra volleyball practices, wanting to enjoy summer; I mean the list goes on and on.

But the truth is really this,

I LOVE writing – it was one of my first joys growing up, and will continue to always be one.  I love opening up a blank email template, word document, or notepad on my phone and seeing where my fingers take me. I have days where they itch to blurt out the weird thoughts and questions swirling around in my head, and the emotions seeping out of my heart. I love the independence that comes with writing. And the minute that it started to weigh; the second that blogging became more of a task to check off my to-do list versus an enjoyment, well I knew it was time to reevaluate.

If you’re a blogger and you’re reading this, this isn’t me tearing down the blogosphere. At a point in time it was for me, and it was fun and I enjoyed writing multiple times a week and feeling like I was part of an online community.  But that feeling has kind of faded away… and that’s ok right?

So.

This isn’t a big ‘I’m shutting down my blog forever peace out homies’ type of this. It’s simply me stating that my priorities have changed, and while I love you guys, I don’t want to lose the joy and independence that comes with writing. Therefore, I will write when I want to write, about whatever I want to write. Maybe sometimes I will post them, maybe I won’t. I like to look at it more like a ‘clean slate’ type of a deal than hitting the delete key.

Thanks to the friends I’ve made along the way, and the readers who have diligently read my rants and ramblings. I hope we can continue our relationships, but I cannot promise consistency in what I’m putting out. This is just me being Kait, trying to be transparent and honest about this crazy nutso beautiful life that we are running around in, while I sit in Midway airport enjoying a glass of wine and a four hour flight delay.

Cheers to change, freedom, and this wonderful country we all live in.

Kait.
  

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

A slacker's confessions


I confess that I don't care the "official" first day of summer is June 21st - summer is here to stay in Baltimore and it makes me explode with joy.  It was a beautiful weekend here, and looking to be the same this coming weekend. 



Speaking of this past weekend, I confess that I watched an entire concert by myself in Baltimore (got separated from my pals) and had zero issues with it. I actually thoroughly enjoyed it.

Is that weird?

I LOVE when people ask me for workout/running advice. The other day my roomie came down to my bedroom AKA my home gym AKA my pile of dumbbells and kettlebells, and upon her request I showed her a few simple lifts that I would normally do at the gym. that I felt were a good place for here to start. It made me happy.

About an hour later I got this request:
disregard the second half of the convo

And so decided that this should be the June ab workout:


Every other day. Summer stomachs here we come.

On top of all that, Andrew recently asked me for help in putting together a training plan for him - he may just be running a fall marathon!

His first marathon ever. Yes. Love when people make that plunge. 

Lastly, I confess I've been very unmotivated to write. Initial wedding planning and volleyball practices on top of work had taken a good chunk of my time away. Plus I'm in desperate need of a haircut, dentist apt, oil change, getting my bike tuned up - you know how it goes, they all pile up at once I swear. 

That being said, June may be a slow blogging month for me. My blog, my rules, not sorry. 

See ya when I see ya, cheers!

Kait